Why?

Why? Because my therapist… and professor… and friends… and dietitian told me to, that’s why. So here I am, everyone, creating that blog I should had started months ago. If you’re new to my life, WELCOME! Before you start reading through my daily life journeys, you need to know the facts. You need to know who I am and why this blog is important. I’m a 20 something year old discovering life for a second time. You’re probably wondering why a second time. We only have one life so why do I need to learn how to live a second time? For 10 years I lived in a fog. I pretended to be someone I wasn’t so I wouldn’t miss out on relationships, sports and building relationships, but in reality, those 10 years where the complete opposite of not wanting to miss out because I did. I missed out and lost a lot of life because of the thoughts controlling my every move.

There was the eating disorder voice, the voice of depression and anxiety, the voice of not being good enough, the voice of physical pain prohibiting me to do what I love, the voice of judgement, the voice of body image lowering self esteem and confidence. The hundreds of voices are with me during my every move. I tried ignoring them but that ended me up here. Writing a blog about my life, past, present and future, and what happens inside my brain. Through treatment for an eating disorder, I learned how much the voices trampled all across my healthy voice. The voice which tells me I AM good enough, I AM loved, I AM beautiful, and I CAN overcome any struggle I am faced with.

I have a lot of interests and hobbies I am discovering and learning to love. Activities that bring me joy and not only a smile to my face but a smile to others. I love writing. That might be the obvious one since I’m here writing to you about my life. I like being able to tell stories, mostly stories about who I am but nonetheless, stories. I like art and photography. Calligraphy, doodling, and details bring joy to me. I am always up for a good adventure because why not? Why not be spontaneous and live life on the edge? I’ve learned how to put myself out there to others and I love it. I love being able to hold a conversation with the man who sits down next to me on a beautiful day in Philly asking me to take his headshots. True story.

Through my writing, I hope I can teach others the importance of stories and how opening up can make the world of a difference. Words bring the world sometimes further apart, but I find they bring us closer. If I had one dream on how I want to live my life, I want to be able to live my life as an inspiration to others. I want to be an advocate of eating disorders, bullying, overcoming, mental health and everything I have witnessed in my life. I want to be able to teach others  that it IS possible to overcome obstacles and hardships in life because I am living proof. Well, I’m still working on it, but I know by the time my time comes to an end on this life, I’ll be able to pass along the message, you can. Follow me along in this journey I call life and be open to listening and learning how to understand me and others. These are my stories.

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